A Goodbye..

Today is a very sad day here.. one which we knew was in the not too distant future, but that doesn't make it any less upsetting.  We lost Jesse this morning. My lovely little matie, who was always at my feet.. wherever I was and whatever I was doing she was the one who was always there.  

In her favourite place

We were told at the beginning of September that she had cancer and that it was incurable.  It was a bolt out of the blue as she hadn't been unwell at all, seemed as fit as a fiddle in fact, but at a routine check up the vet found a lump deep in her tummy.. there was no way it could of been found sooner.  Well after scans, tests and biopsy surgery we got the unwelcome news.  We were told that she would soon become very unwell, most likely only having weeks left.  

We were so glad that once she had recovered from the surgery we had our happy, healthy little Jess back.  Running and playing as always, eating well.. nothing to give any clue as to what was going on with her..

She went to bed last night with a waggly tail as always.. but when we got up this morning she was a very poorly girl.  

We think she'd started having seizures early this morning.  We knew as we were taking her to the vet that it was a one way trip.  She was in obvious pain, I don't think she could of been worse to be honest.  I'd been pretty scared in the weeks coming up to this, knowing I would stay with her but frightened about what would actually happen to her.  In the end it was with relief that we watched, stroking her all the time..  she had the injection took a few more big breaths and relaxed.. and was gone.  It was touching that she went out in such typical Jess fashion.. with a grumble.  She always did this funny deep grumble of pure relaxation when you scratched her ears and you knew she was really enjoying it.. she gave 2  of these grumbles as she slipped away.

Trying to just focus on remembering all the happy times now...

Sisters.. like a pair of bookends!
Last time we had a good snow fall they were determined to eat it all up

 Time has flown since..

the first day in her new home..
Twelve years ago..

In my mind now she is on our favourite beech, chasing seagulls and piddling on seaweed, it's a gentle summers day with the wind blowing her ears back... we'll join her there when it's time.